Friday, September 21, 2012

Puzzlement


This is a poem I wrote for a Spanish class I took. 

Un Rompecabezas

Los tonos y los pedazos
parecen corretear lejos.
Mi agarre de ellos es débil a lo mejor.
Aunque las líneas y las formas parecen
encajar y formar una pista,
no puedo determinar la imagen
que ellos crean o la causa
de este revoltijo de locura.
Los colores parecen combinarse
en una expansión de gris.
No pienso hallar
el orden en su caos.

Puzzlement

These scattered shades and bits
Seem to skitter or shift away.
My grasp on them is weak at best.
Though some lines and shapes seem
to fit together forming a clue,
I cannot pinpoint the image
it creates or the cause
of this jumbled madness.
Any color seems to blend
into a vast expanse of gray.
I don’t think I’ll find
any order within its chaos.

Time Stands, Still Waiting


Time Stands, Still Waiting

Upside-down brooms bristling pearly condensation.
They sweep up heavy silence into the wind
whooshing delicate strands and seeping slowly
into my bones, expanding with ice
they crack like cemented earth.
Green specialized needles hold no fluttering
of wing, chattering of squirrels.
The only living chatter is my teeth.
Time stands, still waiting for a glint
of sun to wake up splattered mud.

The Teacher's Friday Afternoon Treat


The Teacher’s Friday Afternoon Treat

My mouth watering around a lollipop,
I gaze up to my teacher’s soft eyes behind glossy glasses.
Her smooth voice molds itself to give
each character a slightly different inflection.
I still become awed when the reader can leave
behind themselves without making their influence completely lost.

Whenever stopped, she trances her fingers over the page to regain the place lost.
My tongue begins examining the chocolate tootsie center of the lollipop.
My mouth tingles from the sticky residue it begins to leave.
Creeping closer, I can clearly make out my dim reflection in her glasses.
I twist and chew the gooey center causing the fibrous stick to have an inflection.
I savor every morsel of this Friday afternoon treat she would always give.

Every word, sentence, and paragraph open to give
me a doorway into a world in which I can get lost.
As the plot and character unfold, I feel an inflection
of my senses overwhelm me so that I forget completely about the lollipop.
I watch as the king adjusts his glasses
to see a little mouse scurrying to leave.

In desperation, I watch as the mouse is forced to leave
and go to the dungeon with the red thread, which will not give
way, around his thin neck. He must say goodbye to stained glasses
in the castle and submerge into the pitch-black maze in which he will surely get lost.
Having completed devouring it, I now chew mindlessly on the stem of the lollipop.
My teacher has created a severe mood with her dramatic inflection.

Being the end of the chapter, she loses her voice inflection
and tells us it is time to leave.
I discard the white stick of the lollipop.
It gave every bit of flavor it could give.
I yawn and feel all the energy I lost.
My teacher, rubbing her eyes, removes her glasses.

I observe the bright string attached to her glasses.
She, too, yawns with a sharp inflection.
Looking outside, I see the tree has lost
most of its dry brown leaves.
I smack my lips to give
the juices in my mouth a stir to taste a hint of lollipop.

It was much more than a mere lollipop
which she would give.
She built in me a passion for the written word which would never leave.

The Legend of the Snowflake Pixies


The Legend of the Snowflake Pixies

There are pixies living on a fluffy cloud
between the earth and the sky.
In winter they work swiftly to enshroud
the earth with snow piled high.
Without being seen, for they are not proud
but rather humble and shy,
they always begin to whisper aloud
where to go as into the air they fly.

You see in the past they vowed
that every raindrop the Sky Lady did cry,
for she was know to sadly sough,
they would catch after falling from her eye.
But the tears they caught started to crowd
that rather little cloud making one pixie sigh
then all the pixies were gleefully wowed
for in the place of the tear a crystal did lie. 

The First Snow of Winter


Yet another poem I wrote when I was younger. I think I remember writing this in middle school.

The First Snow of Winter 

Snowflakes                
dancing                      
encircling                    
each other.
A light                        
dust                            
unintended                 
to smother.
Making                       
a perfect                     
pair.
Floating                      
and wandering                       
through the air.
Whipped by   
winds                         
that swirl.                   
Gliding from  
cotton clouds
of pearl.
Landing                      
gently                         
on the
ground. 
Fluffiness                   
that
diminishes                  
sound.
Snowflakes                
dancing                      
encircling                    
each other.
A delicately                
sprinkled                    
snow                           
cover. 

The Deconstruction of Disappointment


The Deconstruction of Disappointment

Your absence leaves a desire for more.
It is a potent but light thickness.
It bites my nose.
Viral speckled cells emerge within my thin skin.
My knees become jellied rawness.
These cold bumps are firm and heavy.
Shiny wrinkles fold around my yellow crackled lips.
Your words ooze and explode sharply.
Your threaded projections are pungent.
I am a green star stuck within your tart freshness.

Spirit


This is yet another poem I wrote when I was eleven. It's funny how I still feel this way when the wind blows and about the moon. Some things just never change.

Spirit

The wind is a spirit
That touches my cheek
And it brings me up
When I’m feeling weak

Now it’s night &
There’s no light
The moon shines down bright
as a helpful friend

Ocean Unfilled


Ocean Unfilled

An ocean of time spreads itself thin.
It all leads nowhere.
It is primal and pleasure.

Scream of delight disappear
as the bell rings out to trained monkeys.
Free will is an illusion.

There is a single drop of pain in a vast sea of still paleness.
All I have is now.
I keep my monkey brain still, present.

Life In Wonderland


Life In Wonderland

Life was agreeable which enraged King.
After all, smiles mean conscience has stood up to towering shelves.
 Being a simple man of sympathy, his purpose was consolation.
He swam to the bottom of the ocean to regain purpose.
Instead, he became a bursting bubble in a bathtub.
It will all dissolve in time.
Poor sport did not see her coming at all.

Alice from Wonderland whimpered to the grape vine.
“Stupid Green Monkey. You can not fly,” she declared.
Apple was not hypnotized at all
So Spiraling Top Hat hypnotized it
causing Spirited Glass to spring to its feet
 causing Package to jump into the light.

I guess this is what life is like,
raging with bewilderment.

Hidden Exposed


Hidden Exposed

I was hidden yellow, beneath
flowing lines of speckled pine.
Your smoothness breaks
into my life of plainness exposing
my shiny ecstatic bareness.

Hair


Hair

Lushness spreads wildly.
Ends kiss her pale skin.
Folded kinks sweep shadow across her face.
Eyes match with sharp darkness.
 Brittle breaks display remnants of an untold storm.
Opaque light plays creating different shades.
 Life seeps into the strands.
Softness draws out hidden splendor.
I crave to slide my fingers through it.
Have it twirl and wrap within my palms.

Grandma


Found this while looking through poems I wrote when I was a kid. I was apparently eleven when I wrote this. I teared up while reading this. I miss you Mimi.

Grandma

Goodies upon goodies
Sweets upon sweets
That describes my Grandma
when she’s making treats.

She holds me tight when she
whispers wisdom in my ear.
That’s just one reason
I’m glad she’s here.

I listen intently when she
tells a story.
She’s in the spotlight.
She’s in the glory.

I look at her with the
Kitten in her lap
and the dog sniffing
her ear and I
know that she knows
our fear

Now it’s her birthday
and I’m going to remind
Her . . . . . . .
How much she means
To us . . . for just being
here

Dolls


Dolls

I am going to be trapped
within this dusky space

Airbrushed faces will
encircle me
Beady Eyes will
blankly gaze
through shiny blonde ringlets
worn as stolen souvenirs
from children’s heads
Oh those Eyes
will ensnare mine
in an eternal staring contest
which I
will never win
Instead I will stand frozen
My body
dipped in porcelain
My eyes
dipped in molten glass
I will become
naked of human blemishes
I will become
one of them
Unable to blink
Unable to rest

within a perpetual void
I am going to be trapped

Eyes


Eyes

A heavy contemplation of
the advance into the future.
She stares into the void of its trepidation.
Bluish clouds prickle her neck hair.
It chillingly reminds her.
Will her life become a story of history repeating?
Tremors electrify her skin.
She closes in on herself.
Clouds flood in flashing bombs
beneath her twitching eyelids.

Captured


Captured

Your eyes, captured
essence of warm hands clasping, insecurely
You slowly touch
my insanity and start smiling
foolishly at my nature of existing solely within your eyes.

Abusive


Abusive

Mistake me for a happy mans embrace.
Corrupt the image running into torture.
A saw sharpens against a hope and grace.
My mind dissolves with eyes of that creature.
Forget the daydreams and restrain my time.
Detach the safety and deprive my shell.
Withdraw my essence when I am sublime.
Disturb my slumber, shivers that befell
upon a wounded layer in repair.
Until my dainty crippled fingers twist
around, neglect retrieves me in a snare.
Until I found affection go, I will persist,
Become undone, whenever you refused.
Become diseased within remains abused. 

A Watery Demise



A Watery Demise

Time stands, still waiting for a glint
of something beneath the surface
Circling into endless nowhere,
I keep my fins flailing in vain

Something’s beneath the surface
trying to ensnare me
My fins flail in vain.
Bubbles escape, gaping, gasping

Trying to ensnare me.
Shock races with every grab
Bubbles, escape gaping and gasping
blindly hearing fluid filling

Shocked, racing with every grab
of my waving blue ankles
Blindly hearing, fluid fills
my burdened lungs collapse

No longer waving blue ankles
and nothing’s beneath the surface
My burdened lungs collapsed
Time stands, still waiting for a glint

A Bit of Red



A Bit of Red

What is that on your cheek?
It is bright against your soot covered skin.
Perhaps you smudged it there with your hand?
Maybe it is a trick of the light.
No this slippery liquid is too dark.
Could it be?
From what whining corpse has this come?
It is a barely detectable echo of chaos.
Madame, Can you hear me?
Are your thoughts too loud?

Your Wake & My Reality


Your Wake

I'm trying to pick up
the shards of rose tinted glasses
which you made
and destroyed
due to a few whispers of
fear
I know you are right
We all must see
cold reality eventually
Now I stare
 into foggy mirrors
Trying to wipe you away
like condensation
Your sticky residue endures
I cannot sleep in its humidity
I cannot dream
I am awake in a daydream
of when my nerves danced with joy
Instead of signaling my discomfort
I am awake to reality
and my reality is your wake

My Reality

I pick up
rose tinted glasses
which made
a few whispers of
"I know! right!"
We all must see
Now I stare
into mirrors
wipe away
sticky residue
I can sleep in
I can dream
I am awake in a daydream
My nerves dance with joy
instead of signaling my discomfort
I am awake to reality
My reality

Wild Hearts


Wild Hearts

truth and honor
water and fire
lower and higher
we go

firelight dances
lulled into trances

through the night
hearth glows bright
sparks ignite

silver shields our souls
watch water as it
flows down in pools

the reins are broken
courage has spoken

run through the wild
pure nature’s child

It’s in our blood
throughout the ages
passed down
from the sages

arrows fly
whispers of memories
from days gone by

hear the wind sigh
look through a warrior eye

We pray through the dark
to solar and lunar powers

a dragon’s mark
drawn into our skin
 We are the change
let it begin

Weeds?


Weeds?

Scattered upon a grassy hill
are yellow suns
bursting from green.

A hand pulls the suns
and tosses them aside
unaware of what potential
they hide.

At this sight I sigh
and internally cry.
Why! Oh why?!
Do you make my relatives die.

I try
to see the destroyers
face
and find to much
disgrace
my reflection in its
place.

Wall Woman


Wall Woman

Face thin and young.
She has more wisdom than her age.
Hands and fingers are long and delicate.
Eyes losing their glow like stars at daybreak.

The wall is also damaged.
Having circles colored black and brown.
Like the black hat on her hair.
The wall is a sea of blue sorrow.
The flowers are drowning in it.

Face is strong and proud.
Head held high.
Eyes darkened with pain.
Dressed in dark fluffy feathers.
Elegant but burdened.
Damaged but healing.
What emotions are being concealed?
Why are you putting up a wall?

Trying to Find Serenity


Trying To Find Serenity

Go ahead
Touch my cheeks
Turn your fingers numb
With my frost

My nerves screamed too much
My eyes flowed out too much

I breathed in winter
and let it
infuse my blood
with crystals

My world went to fiery activity
Only to lose it
To cold stones
In my stomach
Killing any butterflies left

This is my choice
I would rather be
numb and stable
Then falling back
into boiling water
Racing through my veins
Burning my lungs with steam

I need to be still stone
Silent and alone
Just for a while
Just so I can heal
This throbbing and swelling
 I need to be
blue and purple
 I just need to find
serenity

Torn


Torn

I am split
between two worlds

my soul in dreams forgotten
my anatomical frame trapped in “reality”

I am who I am now
Yet simultaneously another person

I am everything and everyone
never whole
never at peace

memories forgotten
a life not lived

forbidden to love
yet loving all the same

My God
I don’t even know
my name

The Poem Dance


The Poem Dance

Observations whisper in my mind.
Growing and sliding into a line.
The pencil dances on a black shoe.
Words leap and run through my head.
Jumping and doing cartwheels in my mind.
The pencil skates along on a white stage.
The pencil flips over.
The eraser strokes the paper.
Words spin and turn to move from head to hand.
Words fall onto the paper.
The dance suddenly stops.
On the paper is where the words lie.
Staring up into my eye.  

The Dreamer


The Dreamer

chose the hidden path
seen by no average eye

many eyes see darkness
few eyes illuminate

no soul can find his or her way
a soul will on this day

a strong heart beats within her chest
until the end she will never rest

she swears this
sealing her wish
with a magic kiss

she dares to enter the unknown
adventure shall be sown

by her subconscious she is led
fantasy streaming through her head

awaken she thinks these images dreams
still enchanted by how real it seems 

Sugar Rush


Sugar Rush

I woke up to the memory
of you and me
dancing through my head
as I lay alone in my bed

I woke up to sunshine
remembering how sublime
life could be
when it was you and me

Oh here it comes
that bittersweet
sugar rush
in my soul

Oh here it comes
that bittersweet
sugar rush
I feel

It's just too bad
It's no longer real
No longer real

It's just too bad
it's not real

I woke up to a dream
of being so filled with love
I burst at the seam
and thank god above

I woke up to a hope
that someone could unfold
me like an envelope
and read a story untold

Oh here it comes
that super sweet
sugar rush
in my soul

Oh here it comes
that super sweet
sugar rush
I feel

But it's just too bad
it just isn't really real
It's not real

I want to feel
that sugar rush in my soul
I want to slightly
lose control

I want to feel
that sugar rush in my heart
I want to see something
beautiful start

I want to feel
 that sugar rush today
but it all just slips away
slips away
slips away